Barry’s post
I have to say that I read Barry’s post and agree with a lot of what he says.
My situation is that my own perception of myself seems to be out of whack
right now. There are so many changes taking place in such an incredibly
short period of time, my brain just can’t process everything accurately yet.
Because of this fact, I “use” the numbers as a gauge and the compliments that
are constant at this stage to help me see myself in a more positive way. I
find that sometimes I look in the mirror and the perception of my reflection
is as distorted today as it was pre-op. My best barometer seems to be
pictures. I look at pre-op pictures today and can’t fathom that I was so
huge! I carry one in my little bag and pull it out often (as Kathy says…to
never forget where I’m coming from)! As humans beings we need affirmations
and approval from others around us. That’s human nature!
I may have a distorted view of myself sometimes, but I do try to be honest
and good to myself. I find today that it’s easier to believe in my heart
that I’m worthy of good things in my life. I always was and fortunately for
me I was never one to settle for anything but the best….even pre-op. Today
that’s even more REAL for me. I think the difference today is that I truly
believe it and don’t feel like I’m “fooling” anyone! Can anyone relate to
that?
Some of the best advice I got from the people that have supported me the most
along this journey is: Enjoy every minute, don’t be in a hurry! It all
happens so fast anyway…rejoice in the wonders of what’s happening to your
body and your life! The transformations of both are truly amazing and
wonderful!
Those of us who are fortunate enough to have had this amazing surgery have
much to be thankful for! Encourage those around you so that they too will be
able to experience the joy and happiness that we all deserve so much! I’m no
wealth of knowledge, but I do know what works for me and I’ve found that a
positive attitude never fails me! Sometimes that’s hard, but try it and
you’ll be amazed at the good feelings that result!
OK, I’ll stop now…I just wanted to share my views that seem to help keep me
on track!
Love,
Beth
Lap RNY May 22, 2001
-120 UNREAL!