EMOTIONAL SUPPORT NEEDED
Thursday, July 24th, 2003Hi,
Gee, what an emotional rollercoster ride. I am 22 long pre-op days out. I
believe(oh, I hope) that I have eaten the majority of my LAST SUPPER. I have
gained 8 lbs in 2 1/2 months and boy, do I feel yuck. I seem to be leveling off
on my food intake. That is so strange it is almost like someone has given you a
license to eat anything you ever dreamed of. Even with my yo-yoing my whole
life, I have never been on such a sustained binge in my life. I quit smoking 49
days ago, so I am sure that added to my feeding frenzy.
I started walking the first of January, that was a chore. But now it feels
good(lets say it hurts so good) a bulging disc in my back and extremely sore
feet. But it feels mentally good to take deep breaths and move this big body.
I am quite certain my weight gain would have been much greater without the
walking. I am up to 2 miles a day and I drag my poor old fat dog with me.
Needless to say my dog is looking great and he has alot more energy now.
But I am obsessing about this surgery. I want so badly to be on the other side.
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