Fwd: >OSSG< Revisions
In a message dated 6/25/02 12:58:36 PM Pacific Daylight Time, rykel12@…
writes:
<< I have a question…I have been reading many posts (on this site and
others)
about people getting revisions done. These revisions seem to be needed
because the patients did not follow their ‘rules’ the first time. They ate
the wrong foods, ate too much etc. Why are they convinced that they will be
more sucessful this time. I always thought a revision was done if there was
something medically wrong not because the patient chose not to do what they
were told to do.
EXCUSE ME? I take high exception to someone telling me this. I DID FOLLOW
ALL the orders. Some things were not as black and white for me going through
my VBG as it would be now that is true but I DID NOT EAT MY WAY BACK—-I
never lost much weight to begin with. I did not sit and pig out on pizza
(can’t eat that at all now) and chips (make me nauseous) and junk food or
even eat large portions—-HONEY COME eat a meal with me right now and tell
me that you understand what happened that my VBG didn’t work. My own
doctor’s aren’t sure. I am lucky if I can eat anything when I sit down for a
meal. I can’t go out to eat anymore because I feel so stupid because there
is nothing that I can eat that will not—make me feel yucky and sick.
MY VBG didn’t work that is for sure but if you like I will send my food
journals for all those months that I counted what I put into my mouth and
onto my plate. I suddenly hit a plateau that simply never went away.
I did not give up and just play dead either. I backtracked and increased
food a tad and then decreased food and simply lost no more weight. I lost
between 50-60 lbs. That is not what I consider a success story.
Did I EVER cheat? Hell yes I did. I am not a saint. I did not and still do
not pig out or go hog wild.
I am simply a person that for them this surgery did not work. I wish people
like you would shut up. It is things said like that that make me want to
crawl back in my hole and stay there and be ashamed because I was in the
percentage that it doesn’t go well for.
I am wanting the revision for the same reasons as before only I realize for
me now what I didn’t know and didn’t have available back at that time—that
I needed a more drastic measure in surgery. I am now trying to get this
accomplished. I will be well prepared for the journey since I have already
been down the road before. I need to do this for my health (same reason from
last time—nothing has changed) and again I plan on keeping a journal of my
daily foods. It is definitely an honest kick in the butt when you think you
didn’t eat such and such food.
I read this post and I really saw red. It just reminded me so much of
someone pointing a finger and saying “look at that fat lady trying to walk”.
I am trying to walk like everyone else. That is all. I didn’t do anything
horrible to screw things up for myself and as much as I could sit back and
whine and use that to beat myself up with I know in my own heart that it
simply didn’t happen. Call me, I will let you talk to my husband he will
even tell you how I eat and while I might not have been perfect like some
“other” folks out there think they are—–I did damned good—-I just lost a
small amount of weight and sat on a plateau that has lasted for over a year
and half. Infact just recently I began to lose a few pounds here and there
again and that was because of a medication I was taken off of (I was put on
after the surgery (for depression/bipolar) that actually makes people gain
weight). Of course I didn’t know THIS either for quite a long time into the
treatment. Could that be one of the culprits? Yeah could be.
Anyway I deserve to have my revision just as much as someone that is having
their surgery for the first time—although I would figure a first time
person would definitely have the right of way in line before me—–we all
deserve it. We all deserve to see what we can do and see the results we can
get.
I am not a weak woman, nor are many more of us out here that require revision
surgeries.
Crawling back under my rock now……
Becky-
who blames no one for her surgery failure—
“I have seen the sea when it is stormy and wild;
when it is quiet and serene; when it is dark and
moody. And in all its moods, I see myself.”
-Martin Buxbaum