Obesity Surgery WP Blog

Hi e1. How u all doing? Great I hope. Well, I went to two of my pre-testing
appointments yesterday. The first one was to social services. I think it went
pretty good, except I think I was a little to honest. When I was asked about my
first experience of getting my stomach stapled, I told them I really don’t
remember to much about it. Now I know that sounds bad, and I’m almost ashamed
that I don’t remember to much about it……BUT……my reasons for doing it was
all for the wrong reasons. I wanted a way out, to which she replied, “u mean u
wanted to commit suicide?” And I was only 18 yrs old then. Fast forward 16
yrs, I’m older now, I’m doing research, I’m on these boards full time. I don’t
talk much, but I read all the posts. I want to come out to the support
meetings. I know what I want out of life now. Now u guys tell me. Do u think
that will not work in my favor?
Next was my appointment with the internalist. He made me nervous. He was kinda
hesitate, asked me a whole bunch of ?’s and didn’t seem to pleased. He told me
that I was to think really carefully in regardes if I really wanted to go throu

with wls, casue there was a risk of 1 out of 10 that I probably wouldn’t make
it. And if I did, there would be some sort of risk, due to it being a blot
clot, wounds, anything. Well, let me tell ya, that was the biggest blow to me.
Here I was, with a positive, and well aware of the risks, been reading of some
people going through them, and ur all about 200 lbs lighter than me. I don’t
know, am I taking it to hard? It’s really been a hard two day. And I can’t
talk to anyone at home. So here I am, spillin to u all.
He took a test of my heart, (sry, don’t quite remember what it’s called, ecg I
think, when they hook up wires around ur heart). and said that it was good. I
wanted to say, I know MORON, I am healthy, except for being fat. I have my last
appointment with the dietian. I don’t know if I should bother. I was told by
MORON MAN, to call Dr Sanderson next week and he’ll let me know if it was a go.
Then he sent me off for some blood work.
So what do I do. Everytime I rerun what happened in my head, I start fighting
back tears, or my parents would wonder what’s going on. God I wish they would
be more supportive. But I def know now, that if I told them there’s a 1 in 10
chance that I won’t come back, then for sure they won’t support me. I’m willing
to go throu it, only cause I’m not getting anywhere now. I’m tired of fighting
the endless diets that just don’t work.
Pls help me, seeking some major comfort. Sry and thx for hearing me out.
Anna
Live life to the fullest today, for u never know what’s in store for us
tomorrow.

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