not too panicy…..yet………..
hello all!
I have a proximal , at 7 months out, 100 pounds gone for life, i
pray! i dont dump, sugar does not bother me, i found out by making
some mistakes and waited to dump and did not……i dont have problems
with anything, and i now must use will power, which i dont have….i
am a bit disgusted that i am not sensitive as others to help me stay
away from things longer, but, alas this is my fate…..so i am losing
very slowly now…..sometimes only a couple pounds a month…..i am
hungry all the time and just trying to up my metabolism with
exercise….i hired a personal trainer, that makes me go to work
outs…….hoping i will find energy to keep going soon and then the
workouts will be just another part of my day instead of another thing
to push into my hours of full time work and part time school and
study…….it is just that i have seen others put the wt. back on,
and i am really scared of my own problem of failing myself…….i
desperatly wanted the nausea and the dumping……but now i go to
counselling to find out what is eating me before i try to eat the
world to compensate……so far, nothing except going back to school
may help my self esteem…….my biggest problem is turning 50 and
never having been married and no kids, that i desperately wanted too.
so thanks for listening and i really have tried the get back with it
plan but i am always so hungry, i need help, i am fearful, but i keep
trying and hope the exercise works……then i got a chest cold that
kept me from training the other day……guess its me just saying “now
whats next to ruin me?” thanks for listening, i cant let this fail, i
told my surgeon too that one of the reasons i went for the surgery was
in hopes of dying on the table too……well here i am and i hope this
works……i hope having a proximal, which i did not have a real
choice in, thats all my surgeon does, was not wrong……thanks for
you love and listening……it was nice to try on some smaller clothes
today, but i still ate too many calories anyways……gosh i dont know
about me! but thanks all…..and i hope you all succeed too!
Denise