at 1 week post op tomorrow. im not up cooking. my spouse is doing
everything. we have 4 children. so when he cooks, its still a good
sized meal. im worried because, unlike so many people say, i dont get
sick looking at the food he is cooking. i find myself thinking about
if i can blend it up to fit my puree requirements. i know this is
bad. no, i havent done it yet. but whos to say i wont. i actually
dreamed of eating pizza the other night when they ate pizza for
dinner. i think im going to be a failure. i cant expect them to not
eat. and they respect me in the fact they dont flaunt the food in
front of me, but it like when they eat, i have to get upstairs. i
dont want to see them eat. or when hes baking, i want to scream and
pull my nose out. being honest with myself here, pizza, spaghetti,
whatever .. tastes so much better than puree, and protein shakes, and
sugar free jello. i feel like an idiot. any adivce?
barbara