Checking in for the first time since surgery
Hello Everyone,
Well it has been a long time since I have written. I had my open RNY
back on Feb 18th.
(Barb, Your message was a true blessing to me. Congrats to you and
Sarah, may you both have many,many years of love and happiness!!!)
I have had a hard time with dehydration (even been hospitalized for
two days for it) because I am a “lucky” one that gets diareaha with
just about everything I eat. I have developed lactose intolerence
since my surgery, but have found that I can take some lactose pills
and they do help some. I also have developed some rather serious
depression however I believe that to be related to some other factors
than just the surgery, like an injury in my shoulder and the diareaha.
I am also one of the lucky ones that dump but for that I am truly
thankful because it will help keep in in check!
Now that I have complained let me say this.. I would have the surgery
again in a heartbeat!!! It has changed my life in ways I never could
have dreamed of. I am healthier than ever before. I have lost 63
pounds and a total of 54 inches, and 1.5 shoe sizes. I have gone from
a size 28/30 to a size 18/20. I went from 300 lbs to 237. I have
only 4 more pounds to weigh less than my 6′5″ husband! I have to wear
my wedding ring on my neckless because it just slides off my finger
and I am afraid of losing it. I LOVE to look in the mirror now, even
doing a double take sometimes…lol.
Probably the most important part of the whole thing is this.. I have
found out some new things about who I am… I have found out a new
confidence in myself. I have found out that I really am a good
person. I have found out that I am worthy of love and happiness. I
have found out that I do not have to take people walking all over me
wether it being from a co-worker, family member or friend. I have
found out that my words do have meaning and people for some reason
seem to listen to me now compared to before. I have found out that I
do not have to settle any longer for things because that is all there
is, I can have more out of life, i EXPECT more out of life. I have
found out how to live.
Now I will say this, it is scary at times with all this new founded
information, my brain and heart gets overwhelmed at times. I come
from an extremely abusive background. But guess what, this lil child
inside of me is LOVING it, is crawling out and seeing the world for
the first time.
I would/will recommend this surgery to anyone that wants it. It is a
life saver/changer.
And as my 12 year old would say, Love Peace and Chicken Grease,
Lesa