wanting to be accountable
Hello all!
I wanted to post what happened on Tuesday because I want to be accountable to
someone for my actions. I have good news and bad news.
the bad news is: I broke down and had mcDonald’s. I ate 4 bites of a mcChicken
sandwich, about 8 normal sized fries, and about 5 spoonfulls of a mcflurry (but
the mcflurry took about 10 to 15 minutes to eat that many spoonfulls). While I
didn’t feel great afterwards, i didn’t feel awful until we started driving and
the bumps just upset my stomach terribly.
The GOOD news is: Mc Donald’s DOES NOT have the hold over me like it used
to!!!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOOOO! I am soooooooo happy about that. the only thing i
wouldn’t mind trying is the cheeseburgers. the chicken was hard to eat because
if there wasn’t enough lettuce and mayo on it, i could taste the grease. and
the french fries taste sooooooooo gross when you have to chew them to mush
instead of a couple chews and swallow.
While I feel bad that i couldn’t resist temptation, I am happy to finally know
if I can break the hold mcD’s has had over me for so long!! I will be MUCH less
likely to go there now (unless hubby HAS to have something to eat and that is
the only place he will go…like on tuesday).
Anyway…thought I should let someone know of what happened and how it ended up.
Ann
WLS 2/2/04
67 lbs down
January 28th, 2007 at 11:26 am
Ann! Dear you did not do anything bad — okay you got lucky that the
McFlurry didn’t make you dump — things like that totally make me sick. But
4 bites of a mcchicken? That is not a bad choice. 8 French fries? Everything
we eat does not have to be 100% healthy. We can enjoy some of the stuff we
used to have. Other thing is you have control now. I have eaten McDonald’s,
Wendy’s, BK… fast food. What i have found is I dont like it much. I will
eat it but prefer other foods. Sounds like you discovered something really
good
Denise
mailto: dferguson@…
BTC, Columbus, 10/7/98
January 29th, 2007 at 1:58 am
already giving in to temptation, your fight is going to be
extraordinarily difficult in 2 years. Your fight against
temptations has not even begun. Please be wary of believing that
McDonald’s doesn’t have a hold on you; you ate there!
Whoa Barbara. You usually give excellent advice, but I think you
may be going overboard here because of your own experience. It’s
surely not a given that Ann will have an “extraordinarily difficult”
time at 2 years. Virtually everybody tests their limits at various
points after surgery, in various ways and with various effects.
Fast food may truly not be a problem for Ann in the future. We all
live in the real world and have to deal with popular culture that
may not be ideal for our eating, but we have to learn to cope with
it. Whether you test your limits and learn to deal with particular
temptations at 3 months, 9 months, or 2 years out is less important
in the long run than HOW you cope with those temptations. It’s a
learning curve, and in some ways it might be better to internalize
the “I can deal with this” mentality, as Ann has, when your stomach
is smaller than when you have a more normal capacity and the
temptation is even more attractive.
Celia
January 30th, 2007 at 12:18 am
I just wanted to say thank you to all who had encouraging words for me on
this post! It means a heck of a lot to me that you would take the time out
and support me by saying kind words. I felt very proud of myself because
even though i gave in and ate the bad stuff, I learned a more important
lesson….I CAN live without fast food…even if it is a little while. The
memory of how GOOD it tasted is now gone and a new memory of how AWFUL it
tasted is in it’s place. I don’t drool when i go past a fast food joint
anymore….my stomach turns a bit now. I don’t feel the need to have “just
one” fry anymore, because i KNOW it is going to taste awful to me.
I totally understand where Barb is coming from and rest assured I know those
awful food demons WILL be back to haunt me. I am hoping that by
experimenting so early in the post-op life i will be able to keep ahold of
the nasty memory instead of letting that “good” memory of the taste eat at
me this whole time.
If anything, I have to worry about pizza and wings, and not fast food though
lol. fast food was a once-in-a-while treat that we rarely could afford to
do. but pizza and wings is our “special” dinner…that is what we had when
hubby and I first met and has been special to us ever since. Now if someone
could only make a really low fat wing that tastes like a wing, and have
carb-friendly crust that tastes normal AND doesn’t cost an arm and a leg, i
might be less worried lol.
anyway…my thanks again to those who took the time to write!!
Ann
WLS 2/2/04
67 lbs down