My doc destroyed me today, I really cant take much more of this
So I go in the office fairly pumped, a list of objectives in hand, and my
info for Dr Marchesini printed out for his perusal. He starts reading it and
….
you want to go to BRAZIL for surgery? What about your appointment to get the
access for dialysis put in?
I dont want to wait a year for that to mature, I want to go in a few weeks.
Well, your nephrologist mentioned that you wanted to get weight loss surgery
but hes more concerned with you being able to get on dialysis.
YOU told me to go get WLS! HE told me to go get WLS! FORGET THAT ITS IN
BRAZIL, what about the proceedure itself???
its likely to push you into dialysis, how are they going to administer it?
Put in a permacath! (permanent catheter that can last a year or more
installed in the veins in the neck, exits below the collarbone (in my case,
where a
collarbone should be)
Then he proceeds to tell me that permacaths render the entire arm useless for
access, that there are only so many, and if you run out of sites you die …
So what, you want me to BE on dialysis before i get the operation???
It just might SAVE my kidneys, SAVE them
I wanted to CHOKE the bastard
but im sure in HIS mind hes giving me fair warning
Crossing the local access to Interstate 295, I was tempted to see just how
fast that big red truck could go, and slam it into a bridge support, I am so
sick of the fear and pain and heartbreak of this miserable f&*king life.
But thats a waste of a beautiful truck, Ill just go to brazil, if I wind up
on dialysis, ill be getting skinny on dialysis
If I wake up dead, im outta this nightmare
win win
I just hate that mom has to deal with the aftermath
but I WILL confront the nephrologist with what the doc said, Ill ask hiim
point blank did you tell my doctor that I should get dialysis and not the
operation?
I cant do this anymore, I cant wait for the sword of damocles to drop
on the bright side. despite being upset my BP was 142/60
but thats about it for bright sides
:o(