eaaster blues, er, blows
In a message dated 3/27/2005 12:38:11 PM Eastern Standard Time,
moldana69@… writes:
I have a friend who is waiting for surgery and the doctor has put him in a
diet of the sort of optifast. In two weeks he has 40 pounds. He is going to do
it for a little bit longer to be ont he safe side of surgery. Maybe it will
help you.
Good luck with havign the surgery!
Marta
I should find out what that sort of optifast diet is, sounds like its workin
.. Here it is Easter sunday, and lets see, whats on the dinner table … oooh,
potato salad, (I cant have it), ham (salty, cant have it), Kielbasi, smioked,
salty, cant have it, keilbasi fresh, yay! something I can have a little of!
Liz wanted a traditional dinner, and i figured i would just have a post op
dinners worth and finish off with some melon to have bulk, and I also have some
lettuce in there to make a salad (and vinegar and extra virgin olive oil too,
balsamic vinegar at that)
i am soooooo damn tired. I gave myself The Shot last night, which makes me
feel initially lousier but is supposed to up the iron level . Lead, I feel
like lead, and its scary because even when I was over 800 pounds standing up
was easier. I just want to roll the dice and see who will take the chance with
me, Husted or Rabkin or some damn body
mom, bless her ever hopeful soul, says “maybe if you just walk around the
block, and just have a salad for dinner” I walk out to the truck and im gasping
for air, and its a very short front yard, maybe 30 feet to the truck, around
the block? a naked brittney spears, promising me anything I want if I just
chase her naked nubile form around the block, would be dialing 911 by the first
corner, as the THUD froim me hitting the ground was heard around the state. (and
even if I made the block, what do I want? a nap, a nine hour nap and a drink
of water!)(or an EMT squad and oxygen!) (since there is never a hyperbaric
chamber around when you REALLY need one)
I should just give in, and get the permacath in and start dialysis, i wont
get this stinkin surgery in time to save my kidneys anyway, they are all going
to just fock around until “gee, if you would have had the surgery a few months
ago”
and so Ill stay, on dialysis, forever fat until I die, watching my brother
melt away to the skinny guy that was trapped inside. Freedom for him at least.
But who knows, maybe i can get that 100 pounds off, and not be too weakened
in the process to survive the surgery.
i should be more chipper, i know, but easter always bothered me anyway, poor
guy did nothing but good in his whole life, and after a short and brutally
cruel life died on a cross, ridiculed and in horrid pain
my child mind couldnt fathom how this equated to baskets of candy, chocolate
rabbits and hidden eggs
but if you are having a good day, HAPPY EASTER!!!