Newbie - Surgery Date 12-20
Well, it looks like my surgery date is December 20, just about 2 weeks
and 2 days from now, and I am now starting to get really, REALLY
scared.
It sounds silly, but I am scared that I am going to die on the table
or of some sort of complication. I try to weigh this against the
virtual CERTAINTY of early death if I stay at the weight I am now -
and so far this has worked, but I’m a single mom and I guess I’m just
a weenie. My doctor says I am the “perfect” candidate, because I don’t
have hypertension or diabetes (yet), so he is hopeful that my risk for
complications, while of course present, is as minimized as possible.
I weigh right around 305 lbs, I’ve signed up for post-surgical
counseling with a therapist I know, because I am having a hard time
thinking about what life is going to be like when I am not morbidly
obese. How will people relate to me? How will I relate to people?
Simple things like being able to apply my own toenail polish without
having to do strange contortions of my body can send my brain into
overdrive.
Any words of wisdom or bits of encouragement would be appreciated. It
already helps to see how so many people here have been so successful.
Thanks everyone~
Kim