Well, it looks like my surgery date is December 20, just about 2 weeks
and 2 days from now, and I am now starting to get really, REALLY
scared.
It sounds silly, but I am scared that I am going to die on the table
or of some sort of complication. I try to weigh this against the
virtual CERTAINTY of early death if I stay at the weight I am now -
and so far this has worked, but I’m a single mom and I guess I’m just
a weenie. My doctor says I am the “perfect” candidate, because I don’t
have hypertension or diabetes (yet), so he is hopeful that my risk for
complications, while of course present, is as minimized as possible.
I weigh right around 305 lbs, I’ve signed up for post-surgical
counseling with a therapist I know, because I am having a hard time
thinking about what life is going to be like when I am not morbidly
obese. How will people relate to me? How will I relate to people?
Simple things like being able to apply my own toenail polish without
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