Really weird day today … kinda happy that my kid brother is down in Va
getting HIS DS done, he just came out of the OR and he’s doing well as of 9 PM,
That happiness is tempered by a terrible spike in the pain dept., body pains are
way up, and weakness is really noticeable … I had a complete power failure
today, I didn’t get unconscious or anything but I was completely unable to
move, and I was in sunshine cooking down on me I … the only thing I could do
was lay down in the shadow of my grass mower and try to get strength back.
Getting up was a strain to both of my formerly muscle bound arms, I don’t know
how
in the HELL I am going to cope with not using this left arm for a “weak”
I am exercising, eating what they tell me, taking my medicine and still Im
slipping further and further into what seems to be an inextricable abyss; I know
I sound like a broken record but I had to lie down on the ground today, AND
THATS SCARY …
Liz is having memory issues with how understanding I was when she was sick,
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